figured i could do with a change of name and feel after four years with "mistyhaze". change can be good, and also rather essential if my entries are to be more honest and raw, because this address will be given out only selectively. for now, at least.
anyway, the collage above nice ah, i do myself one leh :D
i wonder if this is my very own tale of betrayal, or what? once is bad enough but why has it got to happen to me a second time with yet another good friend? sometimes i think i believe in karma because it seems like almost the exact situation is happening but only with the roles reversed. not that it matters to me because i don't care much for love in the first place - it is just the whole shock factor, followed by disbelief, then a sharp pang of feeling fucking betrayed. because it is not just any other girl involved, but a friend; and a good friend i would like myself to believe.
the feeling of shock and betrayal is still there every morning when i wake up, but it is getting progressively milder now, thank god.
i guess time will work things out. things have a way sometimes of settling themselves out if you leave them long enough to be. well, sometimes. so, whatever lah (: i am best at escapism or acting like i'm okay enough until i really get okay.
met up with the church guys after a long time, had dinner at ikea tampines.
