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"My favourite thing
is to go where
I've never been."
- Diane Arbus
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it's 3.45am and i just had mac's burger and fries. it's funny how the few deliverymen never once looked at or checked the amount of money i gave; funny how i still give the correct amount each time; funny how all of them look the same, indistinguishable from one another, all fleeting shadows in the middle of the night, just carriers of the transaction between money and food.
funny how i'm suppose to be starting on my 103 report but i'm typing random sentences here instead, funny how my life has come to a standstill right about now, funny how i think of the most random person ever when i was in that emotional state, funny how i confuse reality with fantasy, funny how i've barely started on my revision for the exams which is less than 2 weeks away, funny how i'm still not doing or feeling anything about it, funny how perhaps i've resigned to my fate that this semester will be a really bad one, funny how i gave up playing the piano at Grade 5 when i was in primary 6 and regretting now, funny how playing the piano is really a form of escape, funny how i just want to carry on sleeping forever and not have to wake up, but waking up anyway.
what's funny anyway? a word, repeated too many times, loses its meaning. it can be spelt any other way and still mean the same. like the rose smelling the same or whatever that quote was.
but you know what's the funniest thing? that all these aren't funny anyway.
...
a wild flower dies
where it blooms
so let me be
a wild flower
its death shall be
the fading of beauty
-suchoon mo