flowers in the attic

Monday, April 09, 2007

rhapsodies for yesterday's yous

hello you,

1. it's been quite some time since i last saw you. how're you getting on? you know, i still think about you now and then. don't worry, i'm not thinking of you in that i-can't-get-over-you way, not anymore. i'm just glad i still think of you a little because that shows i still have my sentimentality. maybe this shows that whatever happened might have had a tinge of genuineness. well, maybe, we won't ever know, would we? everyone like to kid ourselves sometimes; i hope you kid yourself enough to convince yourself that you're right.

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2. you know what, i actually kind of miss talking to you. i miss your quirky sense of humor and your loud, noisy ways; and i miss talking about guys with you. well, you would think that judging from everything i'm doing, i would be unaffected and nonchalant. oh wait, actually, i know you wouldn't think so. i know that you know that it's all an act. i really miss just hanging out, having girly moments with you, but you know what's the deal? i just cannot do it anymore. i cannot bring myself to do all that anymore. you're right, i can't overcome myself. for that, i'm sorry. but if you're still the you that i know, you would understand, and you would wait out that maybe one day i'll come around, right? i hope you do, because i'm waiting out for that day, too.

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3. i am not exactly conscious of my actions all the time, and i don't mean when i'm sleeping. i know you would be quite confused. well, i don't blame you, because, i am too.

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4. welcome home! it's great to have you back but it sucks that i have to leave the moment you're back. you're irreplaceable, and we'll have our girly chats through the night when i get back again. it's scary now that we're all growing up so fast, but you know that i'm still the same old me and i know you're still the same old you <33

love (or not),
me

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