flowers in the attic

Thursday, August 07, 2008

this week has been one of the most tiring weeks for me, no thanks to travelling three hours daily and getting up at 6.30am. didn't help that things didn't go the way i expected or that i'm just not used to school starting, or that things are not the way i would like them to be among so many other things. for sure, it is nice going back to school and seeing all my friends again and have lunch together and chat mindlessly and being able to have things to do rather than laze around at home feeling like a bum, but things happen just when i was expecting to start a great week, and planning my timetable (to drop or not to drop?) and printing notes and buying textbooks and having projects (already?!) and not knowing if i am taking enough AUs or if i am fulfilling my track - heck, i don't even know if i want to do PR anymore, but that's too late for it now, isn't it? or that i don't even know for sure what i wanna do in the future anymore, and money concerns and facing disappointments and not being able to get a hall and what CCA do i want to take, if any; is all just taking too much of a toil on me. and this is just school. i'm just feeling really tired, and i'm scared and i'm afraid that i'm losing my faith. i started out with so much enthusiasm, so much gutso and so much... and now i'm just afraid that i'm slowly but surely losing all of that. sometimes i wish that everyday is Sunday, because sometimes weekdays seem so far away. i really don't wish to go through this semester alone and to rely on my own strength, because i know i'll falter and fall sooner than i know it; it is His strength that i need. it is His strength that i need.

❤ enhui, 10:49 PM