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"My favourite thing
is to go where
I've never been."
- Diane Arbus
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i never thought i would feel this way again - i thought i had said goodbye to these surge of negative emotions together with my angst-ridden teenage years. but it seems like as long as you're alive and you're kicking, as long as there are ups and downs in your life, you can never escape the kind of emotions that can make you feel like shit and that nothing good is going on in your life. it never rains but pour, they say. bad news just won't stop coming, and i'm this close to calling it quits with the world.
but at the risk of sounding cliche, i know that some rain is needed in one's life - to appreciate the good, there is a need to experience the bad. i'm not sure if i've hit rock bottom yet, but if i have, at least the only other way from here is up. i won't stay down here for long, that's for sure. i'm clinging on to the one hope i have, to Him who will never fail nor forsake me.
and, at the very, very least; at least the birds are still singing outside my window.
...
a wild flower dies
where it blooms
so let me be
a wild flower
its death shall be
the fading of beauty
-suchoon mo