flowers in the attic

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

so i reckon i should update this space before the onslaught of school begins and i get buried under FYP and 3 (4?) modules... but well, mostly FYP i should think (and so this will be quite the long post).

it's 2010 and i still have not wrapped my mind around that although it is beginning to sink in somewhat. a few resolutions off the top of my head for this year in no particular order: 1). be a better friend, take more initiative to sustain friendships, make time and keep to my word! 2). let my guard down just that little, i really don't like self-censoring so much and i fear being too private for my own good 3). live life, be more spontaneous, travel travel travel (first to neighboring countries then we'll see how it goes) 4). know what i want to do in life finally - though this is so, so vague and i am really afraid that i will not ever discover my passion; i think one of the worse things in life is never discovering what you're good for and with graduation coming up, i really pray i am one step closer to realizing what i'm meant for.

i was so glad today to bump into alan and kianyi at can A during lunch when i was dateless for lunch and they were so nice to say i can join them and that they will wait for me even though they were already 1/4 way into their meal (and guys eat fast!). i guess this just reiterates the point that i am a product of society's norms and conventions and i will never be comfortable having to dine alone in public. even though i eat at home by myself all the time so... what's up with that, right?! i think people who dare to eat alone outside are cool, so if you're one of them... you have my respect! i hope i will find the courage someday to do that and be comfortable with myself.

and this brings up the point that I REALLY <3 MY GUY FRIENDS. while i absolutely love girl talk, i've always been more of a guy's kind of girl. i really like how they have the whole brotherhood thing going, are more often than not willing to go that extra mile, don't hold grudges against each other (less so than girls anyway), are generous with their time and energy, and how i can always call them up anytime... sometimes i feel like i should have been born a guy instead.

but at the same time with news like this, i really detest the male species sometimes cos' (and i quote) guys have 2 heads but they are perpetually thinking with the wrong one! show me a guy who isn't horny half the time and i'll show you... i don't know, a dog who doesn't bark?? ok lame.

if you haven't noticed i'm kinda on a rambling tirade here, but i shall now end with a few select pictures of what i've been up to in the remaining days of 2009 leading up to the New Year, for your viewing pleasure and for my remembrance's sake-

jon's elder brother, kelvin & donghui's ROM at their house's garden terrace
which was prettily done up with really lovely flowers.

with the lovely bride.

dimsum lunch buffet with the fyp group + justin to celebrate
3 belated birthdays.

christmas eve.

christmas party on christmas day at jon's place.
here with our very talented dominic :)

everyone got a bear after the party, courtesy of jon's mom.

cellgroup party.

the setting for our focus group sessions, which took up the bulk of my dec holidays if i may say so! complete with pandan cake.

met the guys from school for dinner and some zombie killing! like
what jared said it was an uncommon occurrence to have more guys
than girls in a mass comm outing. (cue my above para about how i should
be born a guy instead)

we love reflections.

dinner with huisi and khai whom we haven't met for more
than a year! camera-shy la this guy.

so school has started and although my timetable is still not fixed yet because of the nightmare that is STARS, i somehow have a good feeling about this sem. no doubt it is gonna be my last sem of school, and no doubt FYP is going to be an insurmountable mountain of stress, but i know i'm gonna rock it, somehow. i've also sorta moved back into hall (the hall where i spent my first 2 years in NTU and where i first met the boyfriend no less) and it's like coming full circle.

i am so gonna embrace these last 4 months of being a student.

xoxo.

❤

let's live life on the edge,

sometimes i surprise even myself with the things i'm capable of, like heading
out of the country on a whim two saturdays ago. i grabbed whatever i could + my passport and off i went across the causeway. it was spontaneity at its peak.

chicken rice balls which was a gastronomic delight.

up st. paul's hill.

another gastronomic pleasure which had me craving for more
back here in SG and wondering when i can indulge again.

the famous Jonker Walk which reminded me of our very
own Chinatown.

nyonya laksa.
it was a great getaway while it lasted and i can't wait for the next impromptu trip. it was also my first time (or so i think...) at history-rich Malacca and it was definitely a nice change from the bustling city of SG. but for now as the song goes, it's back to life, back to reality, back to the here and now ♥

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