flowers in the attic

Monday, August 16, 2010

so i was speaking to a schoolmate today, one whom i have seen around in school but never really spoken much to; and we were talking about our lives since graduation, how she is now doing research despite having done journalism for the most part, and how i am still caught in limbo, waiting, searching.

and i was like, "i have been slacking for so long that my brain is so slow and rusty now."

and she replied, "no, you know actually, it is people like us who have been working and caught up in our office routine that our brains are becoming rusty to the world outside; instead it is people like you who are still not caught up in the rat race, enjoying life for what it's worth and whose brains remain sharp to the world." (well something along this line anyway)

and i was pleasantly surprised. no doubt i have to admit that my brain is pretty rusty from the un-use these few months, but her definition of rusty is something refreshing. you can be working but your brain can also become rusty, doing the same old same old.

she also reminded me of the fact that i can still engage in creative assignments of my own, like blogging or photography or whatever it is i like to do. we talked some more about fyp and l4d2 and i am glad to have bumped into her today. i doubt you will read this but all the best in whatever it is you do, k! :)

and was at a friend's grandmother's wake last night and after the Christian service and over peanuts and drinks, a friend from NUS who just graduated and still unemployed shared how he is enjoying his time exercising, reading and playing his music when i asked how he spends his time now.

then an uncle from church walked past and spoke to us, sharing of his first job which he jumped prematurely into because his then-girlfriend got a job sooner than he did, but which he quit after 2 months anyway because his job required him to do some unethical things. and his advice? don't jump straight away into any job you get, enjoy first. and this is not the first time that i have heard it, every working adult tells me the exact same thing!

while i am upping my job search because i do want my brain to be put to some good use soon, bottomline - i'm not going to worry so much. whatever will be will be. everything happens for a reason and i trust the One who has everything beautifully crafted in His hands.

"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?" -Matthew 16:26

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